This morning, I hit 188.6 lbs. It may have been 188.4 lbs, but I forget exactly, so when that happens, I take the higher weight (I don’t want to give myself any undue credit). This is significant because now I’m settled firmly into the 180’s. That means I have less than 13 lbs to go before I reach my arbitrary and meaningless weight goal. I say it’s arbitrary and meaningless because in the past, I’ve missed target weights but felt a whole lot better, was healthier, fit into smaller clothing more easily, and felt like I generally accomplished my goals of being at a healther “Size.”

The reason why so many people fixate on the numbers is because it’s an easy measure and it’s tangible. What’s less tangible is how much better you feel, how much easier exercise is, how less winded you are climbing a flight of stairs, and how much better those blood test results are during your annual physical. These are the things that really matter. Weight? It’s a simple way to put a number to all these things, but it’s actually not that simple.
Factors for affecting your weight include your height (obviously), age (bone density increases with age making your skeletal weight greater), genetic makeup, and fitness level. As I get more and more back into physical activity, my body becomes leaner but the muscles also more dense and heavier. When I lost my initial 130 lbs, it is only then that I decided to add exercise to my journey. I continued to lose some weight, making it up to 150 lbs lost, but then I started gaining weight even though I was still losing inches off my waist. This was because I was weightlifting and also running which made me much healthier and stronger, but also made my muscles more dense.
Weight, for me, is a snapshot. It’s an easy guide to see where I’m at without looking too much into it. But once I do, and once I take everything else into account, I find that weight is not an accurate measure of success when undertaking a healthier lifestyle. It’s more like a suggestion. That’s one of the reasons why Whole30 doesn’t want you to weigh yourself. Many people can become easily discouraged when they don’t see the numbers dropping (or worse, see them increasing) while ignoring all the positive changes going on in their body and overall health. As our bodies reconfigure from a bad diet to a good diet, the body reacts in weird ways. I’ve done enough Whole30’s to know the process by now, and I’ve made it past the stall that normally happens to me just past week 2. Now, I’m back to making progress as my body is completely accustomed to the good food and the complete lack of added sugars (or heavy carbs in any form). I still have fruit, but it’s blueberries, raspberries, cherries, grapes, and oranges. I may have a banana before my Army Fitness Test on Saturday morning, but that’s just to pump my blood with some easy/quick energy before exertion.
So, while I celebrate the weight loss, I don’t put too much into that. It’s nice, but honestly, the only reason I really care is because the Army still cares about weight, and the new “Fit” standards to measure body composition penalize short people (like me) with unrealistic numbers for people my age.


