Changes in Perception

This article isn’t so much about Whole30, Paleo, or motivation. It’s some observations I’ve had since losing over 105 lbs in under a year.

File_000 (29)When I was fat, I used to notice the skinny people. I would look at them and think, “Wow. I wish I were them.” I would wonder whether it was genetics, or if they were exercising their guts out. Maybe they were just lucky and never got fat like I did. Either way, I noticed them all the time. As for the other fat people, they were unnoticed; they were like me. Heck, I even felt better among them: like being a bird in a flock of similar birds.

Now, I feel like a fish out of water most times. Now that I’m into what I would call normal sizes, I notice the fat people, and there are so many of them. It’s alarming how many people in our society are not just overweight, but obese. I’m not saying this to shame anyone, or to make anyone feel bad. I say this because it’s what I see. And what I feel for every large person I see is sadness.

IMG_0017I feel sorry for them because I know they don’t want to be that big. I know first-hand what it’s like to be that big, and I know it hurts in more ways than just in the knees. I feel sorry for them because they’ve been lied to all their lives about nutrition and diet.

Now, I notice the overweight people looking at me. I know what they’re thinking. I feel their stares, and I avert my eyes. I feel guilty in their presence for being thin now because I know they think I judge them. I don’t. They believe that I think they are weak or gluttons. I know they are not. I’m sure some could never imagine that I was just like them not so long ago.

I don’t say a word to them about nutrition, health, or losing weight unless I’m asked or unless it comes up in conversation. I know that’s hard to believe after reading this site, but it’s the truth.

File_000 (25)After nearly a year, I also find that I don’t talk about my weight loss or nutrition as much among friends unless it comes up in normal conversation. Sherry and I are asked all the time for nutrition tips, food recommendations, or recipes, and we gladly oblige, but I feel that we’ve slowed down our talking about our weight loss.

I use this website to let out the pressure that builds up inside me like an Instant Pot. I have to get this stuff off my chest online otherwise I would explode.

Our perceptions of ourselves and others have changed a lot. The way we see the world has changed. Some of the things we see now are amazing, beautiful, and wonderful while others are heartbreaking and sad. It’s a new adventure and experience every day. We just have to learn to roll with it and make the best of it.

With that said, living the thinner life is definitely better in so many ways. I just wanted to shed some light on some of the things we’ve noticed since losing the all the weight we’ve lost.

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